damn last time i was on here was over a year ago….hmm i was in a not so good space then, slowly coming to getting it together LOL..well since then i got my driver’s license, i got my social work lic. (LMSW), moved out the crib, got a new job, fell in love, got my heart broken 2x!, 3 god babies born to me, went to DR (BFF got married) and Jamaica (and fell in love with Bob Marley) and that is all i got for now.
If there is anything that I’ve realized is that you are responsible for your own happiness. Can’t no one take that away from you. You are responsible for making yourself happy and getting shit done, making things happen in your life. You spend so much time fighting yourself, feeling sorry for yourself that you get stuck and you continue to spiral more and more to the bottom of the barrel. It takes a lot of strength and will power to pull your self the fuck up. I’ve been low many times but I find strength in picking myself the fuck up. Ain’t nobody going to love me like I love myself and it is my responsibility alone to get it the fuck together.
It’s a daily struggle but I find peace in self talk and prayer. When I remember, (and i should remember more often) i look up and i pray to my higher power. I surrender myself and ask Him for guidance and strength to get through my day. i say “God let my actions and words come directly from you”. I realize when I don’t incorporate prayer into my day, i tend to have not so good days. So this is a reminder to myself to keep God present, forward, in my face, all day, every day bc he always has me first and I should do the same.
Self talk is the best thing ever. It may sound crazy but sometimes when you talk out loud and have a conversation with yourself you can talk yourself out of foolish things or just even bring things to your awareness that your had never really though about before.
Ok I am done for the moment. Happy to be back and just free write, talk and share with the world my thoughts. I leave you with a smile…trust me you will feel so much better!
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